Right now you are watching "Leap" for the millionth time today. You love watching dancing and getting out there and dancing yourself. I love your spirit. I love your love for life. I love your laugh. I love your smile. I love you.
With my whole heart.
I know sometimes parents say that and you think but how can you love me with your whole heart when you have sister and brother and daddy and grandma.... I just can. There is plenty of room and when you were born my heart made an entire new heart for Everly Mae.
When Addi was born I didn't get to hold her much. She was sick and mommy was sick and it just was difficult. When you were born I squeezed on you so much I'm sure you thought 'mom settle down'. Nothing has changed 3 years later. I can't get enough Evie cuddles and squeezes. You are my sweet little girl Evie and the older and older you get it will never change. Just as the last 3 years have not changed.
This year Everly you began preschool. It was a little rough on mommy. My sweet little Evie with the softest heart in the world leaving me for a few hours each week is heartbreaking. I know this will be such a wonderful year for you and that you will learn and grow so much. I knew that was something I could never hold you back from, even though I wish I could squeeze you all day long instead. Your first day of school you were so nervous and quiet but so excited. You had been anxious for it the whole week prior, since seeing Addi off to her first day of school. That first day you were ready. Mommy was not. I was sad. I cried. I felt I was a horrible mom. I was scared and nervous for you. I was also very excited for you and ultimately my desire for you to be happy is stronger than my desire to keep you with me forever. No surprise, you had a wonderful day! You loved singing. You loved art time. You loved Miss Jacquie. You loved being in class with Kate Valentine and Jonah Cichon, your best friends. You loved play time. You loved learning. I hope you always remember that you love to learn. There is something so wonderful about being able to learn and never stop learning. I have that desire to always learn, to always grow, to always be my best version and I hope you have that desire in you always as well.
Today you are not in school and you are playing with your little brother. I love seeing that. I love seeing how you become the older sister when Addi is not around. You help Lennon, like getting a stool for him so he can reach things, whenever he needs it. In your Father's Blessing before school started Daddy said that you would be an example to others. As I watched you sit so still with your eyes closed for your blessing I knew the Lord knew your potential. I knew you would be that shining example to others because you are to your little brother. You are to all of us. You will be such a wonderful friend and influence in others lives and while I am seeing that already I know it will grow exponentially as you get older.
I love you so much Evie. Have a great school year and always remember who you are.
Love, Mom
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